Welcome to my running commentary on life.

Welcome to my running commentary on life.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

That Vicious Mood

January 27, 2010

The mood comes upon us and we don’t even realize it.  We rise in the morning, look at the scary freak in the mirror, scratch our butts and start the day.  Then, while listening to Snap, Crackle and Pop over the din of morning news reports, barking puppies and screaming kids, it hits.  The Mood

Oh, come on.  Don’t pretend you don’t know what I’m talking about.  We’ve all been there.

The cereal tastes like crap.  The kid is on a tear, screaming because she doesn’t have a thing to wear in all the clothes you spent a king’s ransom on.  The dog just chewed through your best summer pumps, which she dug out of the back of the closet after depositing a fresh, fragrant gift next to your bed.  The sweet little trinket/bimbo on the tube is smiling brightly and giggling while she tells you—with great enthusiasm—that you better get out your long handles and snow boots because there’s going to be yet another blizzard in a long succession of sunless days.

Suddenly you’re envisioning that adorable puppy roasting on a spit over a blazing fire and watching the weather-twerp’s dyed hair dissipate, leaving her bald and screeching her humiliation in front of the camera.

Yep, that’s right.  It’s The Mood.

Beware, dear people.  This is not something to be taken lightly.  It affects Northerners far more frequently than Southerners—especially in the winter months—but no one is immune to its influence.

Your morning commute becomes a nightmare of knuckle-dragging idiots without enough glyco cells between them to make a decent primate.  (For you brainiacs out there, I know that’s not the correct usage of the terminology, but I’m being facetious.) 

The guy in the white Cadillac Escalade is back, taking up your lane as well as his while he juggles his morning coffee, his cell phone and the briefcase he keeps fishing crap out of.  What the hell?  Is it on auto pilot?

Oh, let’s not forget your favorite soccer mom, shuttling her kids, the neighbor’s kids and some vagrant who sneaked into her soccer-mom-prerequisite minivan.  She’s not paying attention either.  She’s singing along to the radio and studying her daily agenda while Junior and his buddies toss the ball around until it flies out the window and crashes into your windshield.  WTF?  Why do they have the window down?  Hellooo…It’s winter!

Then you get to work and your coworkers are doing that pretend-to-be-cheerful-so-they-think-you’re-a-stellar-employee dance with their big fake smiles and their jovial greetings.  You want to tell them all to stick it up their butts, but you smile and do your best to join the dance, or the supervisor gives you that look that says she knows you’re in The Mood

That’s where I found myself today—deep in the clutches of this nasty frame of mind.  I was too PO’ed to even fake the dance as I went about my daily grind at the lovely cube farm. 

My first call of the day was from an egotistical dork who took great pleasure in reminding me that I was there to serve him.  I’d like to serve him, all right, with a nice Chianti and some farva beans.  Slurp.

But I did my job, saying in a voice oozing saccharine, “That’s what I’m here for, sir.  I’ll be happy to take care of whatever issues you have.  Now, what may I do for you?” 

With a Star Wars Universal Translator the caller would have heard, “Yeah, let me take care of the problems you caused because you’re too dim-witted to figure out how to fill out the same paperwork you’ve been filling out in the twenty-two years you’ve been doing your job, you mindless sack of cow pies.  I’ll fix it with some arsenic.  You want that straight up, or on the rocks?”

It didn’t get much better as the day progressed.  Everyone, it seemed, was in the same humor.  They were ticked off at the world, and me in particular because I was foolish enough to take their calls.  By the time I was finished for the day, I was ready to (in the words of Arlo Guthrie in his famous Alice’s Restaurant—the long version) Kill!  Kill!  Kill!

Not having taken enough punishment for the day, I decided to stay after and call up member services to deal with a few of my own benefit issues before heading out into what was starting to look like a wicked winter storm.  There’s an employee program that reimburses us for money spent to get in shape, have well care visits with doctors and anything else we do for our own good health, but I can't get into the system.  I haven’t been able to since I signed up over three years ago.  I have to get the paperwork before I sign up at the gym in order to get the discount.  I’ve been trying to join a local gym for several weeks now and this is the only thing holding me up. 

So, I stayed late, on my own time, to talk to the people at the help desk, but because I'm an employee, they can't access my account and fix it.  I have to talk to someone in employee services.  Those people are only there during the same hours I'm on the phone and I have to have a computer in front of me when I talk to them on the phone, so I can't call them on my lunch hour because I'm not supposed to use my company computer or the company phone for personal business during regular business hours.  ARGH!

An hour and several handfuls of hair later, I headed into the eye of the storm—and I’m not talking about the weather.  I was fed up to the gills with the day, with the job, with the people around me and the world in general. 

It took time, and a great deal of personal restraint with all the knuckle-draggers on the road, to make it to the interstate.  As I headed for the on-ramp, my one goal was to make it before the salt truck/snowplow two car-lengths ahead of me got there.  I was just about to make my move when a Mercedes cut me off.  A big glob of sticky slush hit my windshield and left me temporarily blinded.  By the time my wipers had done their job, there were two cars on the side of the road, the Mercedes was behind me again and the salt truck was on the ramp.  With a few choice words for Mr. Mercedes, I followed the truck—at a safe and slow distance.

For those of you who rarely or never see a salt truck, this big thing on the back of the truck wings salt chunks everywhere, making it impossible to pass without damage to your car, so I had to stay behind it.  It was spraying rock salt, some chunks as big as my fist and the mix of raw salt, slush from the truck tires and the snow coming down caused a nasty film on my windshield that was near impossible to wipe away. 

I got into the left lane and tried to pass him, but the salt sprayer covers both lanes, so bits and pieces were hitting my car.  I got behind him again and stayed there.

Finally, the others behind me decided to slide around him.  The first was Mr. Mercedes and I had a wicked moment of malicious glee when a huge chunk hit the car causing something to break off the front end.  I had to swerve to miss it when it came flying back.  Oh, the perverse joy!  Then came several others, one in a big SUV.  I got on his back bumper and followed him around, using him as a shield.  I got past the big truck, got up to my exit, took the next ramp to my turnoff and ended up behind another salter. 

I pulled off the road, screamed profanities and waited until I was sure he was far enough down the road before I continued. 

Let me tell you, dear readers, there isn’t enough chocolate ice cream in all of Christendom to make a day like this go away or cure The Mood once it sets in.  

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Censorship in the Land of the Free


Constitution of the United States of America

BILL OF RIGHTS

AMENDMENT I

Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances.

It’s been a while since my last post.  I apologize for it.  I’ve been very remiss.  For those of you who visit here looking for something pithy, something that gives you a moment to relish someone else’s domestic miseries, I apologize again.  This is not that post.

Let’s be serious for a moment.  Allow me to discuss something horrifying that is happening more and more often of late in our beloved homeland: Censorship.

To be fair, I’m not talking so much about what the government does daily to silence people.  That may be a topic for another day.  The subject of this post is censorship imposed by corporate entities.  The latest attack has been imposed by such banking corporations as PayPal.

PayPal, as well as other on-line banking services have taken it upon themselves to tell publishers just what kind of stories they may sell to the poor, misguided public.  That’s right, my friends, they’ve decided to ban any seller of certain types of . . . dare I say it?  EROTICA!  ThereIsaidit.  Whew.

This is not a ban on all erotic stories, mind you . . . at least not yet.  It’s only certain types.  These semi-taboo and taboo subjects are not exactly my cup of tea, but to paraphrase the words of Evelyn Beatrice Hall who wrote under the pseudonym S.G. Tallentyre when she summed up the beliefs of Voltaire, I may not like what you have to say, but I’ll defend to the death your right to say it. 

The thing is I shouldn’t have to defend it to the death.  I live in the “Land of the Free”.  This freedom of speech is written in stone.  No, really.  There are plaques and monuments all over the country where these words are inscribed in stone.  And they should be in every country, every land, every culture.  The free exchange of ideas, creative expression and bawdy jokes is a freedom every single human being should enjoy, but many don’t.  Here in America, the line is being drawn.

It’s being drawn against one of our most sacred laws.

As I indicated earlier, the types of stories under attack aren’t really my kind, but I do write stories with erotic content.  Not all my work has sex, but some of my most popular titles do. 

Okay, let’s see a show of hands.  How many of you actually read my work?  I see a lot of women, but judging by my fan mail, there are just as many men.  Come on, guys, don’t be shy.  There’s nothing wrong with indulging in an action-packed romantic escapade where the girl gets the guy, and in the end they make lots of babies and live happily ever after.  (My favorite was the ex-Marine who expressed his anger at me for bringing him to tears—you know who you are.)

How would you feel if you couldn’t buy the new title waiting in the wings because two people in the story have the audacity to engage in intercourse—which we probably all agree is the natural progression of things when two people fall in love.

PayPal hasn’t gotten around to banning such titles yet, but it’s a real danger.  What’s next?  By their reckoning, the Bible should be banned, as well as many other religious and holy books, too.  It’s an interesting—albeit frightening—course in this life.

Let’s explore other writers.  Much fine literature is rampant with sexual content.  Consider, if you will, the following authors and their titles:

Thomas Keneally, Schindler’s Arc (from which comes the massively successful movie, Schindler’s List)
Gustave Flaubert, Madame Bovary (even in France when it was written, it was realized that the right to publish it far out-weighed the government’s authority to crush it.)
Radclyff Hall, The Well of Loneliness (Oh, wait.  That one was successfully censored by our own government in the 1928 U.S. obscenity trial, due to—heavens!—lesbian sex.  All copies of the novel were destroyed.  Of course, someone rather naughty saw to it that it was republished in recent decades.)
James Joyce, Ulysses (Holy &*^%, there’s masturbation in the story!)
Peter Parnell and Justin Richardson, And Tango Makes Three (It’s a children’s story, for crying out loud, but because it deals with two male penguins bonding together to care for an egg—you know, like in real life—people want it banned as having “gay” overtones.)
J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (So darned sexual! It’s the third most challenged book.)

Many of you have read some of these exceptional titles.  Many of you have read classic and recent titles by great authors and found more than one titillating scene in them.  We read them to feel, to escape, to learn and to experience.  Should any of them be banned?

Our freedom of speech is a powerful tool—and a powerful weapon.  It was used as a weapon to free this country from oppression over two hundred years ago.  It’s still useful today.  The time is now, ladies and gentlemen.  It’s time to speak up before these revered works are no longer available. 

Let’s show these over-bearing corporations that we, the people, are not misguided, ignorant or in need of Big Brother to decide what we can read, what we experience and what we want to learn.  I, for one, will be making my stand against censorship and any other form of oppression that threatens my freedom.